It's flu season here and it looks like I breathed in one too many flu particles... I've been sick since Tuesday but for something compelled me to keep showing up to the office to do work.
I think it's a combination of
- male bravado
- me wanting to prove something to myself
- this dread and anxiety that I'm not performing well enough at the office and trying to make up for it
I never really pegged myself to be the kind who would worry about all three of these things. I need to re-evaluate how I treat my body and how much of myself I want to give to my work, I think, especially since it hasn't even been 3 months since I started working full time. If this is how far I'd go with stakes this low, how far would I take things if and when I'm higher up the ladder?
Relevant ITYSL bit
At least I discovered my company's health insurance benefits are pretty cool. 😅
